memory problems

everyone always says i have holes in my head, and thats not very far from the truth really. ive got this horrible memory problem. i seem to forget who i tell things to. like i was planning something and i didnt want someone to know about it so i told everyone not to tell him and the next thing i know he comes up to me and asks me hows the plans. i freak out and get all defensive and said really bitchly "how did you find out?" and it turns out i told him. this happens all the time. Deb is normaill the one who get caught in my memory problems. i tell her almost everything and i tend to forget that i tell her anything. its really wierd. got to fix it!

how disrespectful

omg. the dude next to me in the cyber is watching porn. how disrespectful. i cant change my pc cos this is the only one with microsoft word and i need to finish my assignment!

wonder how they are

dear diary,

ahmad, azmin and i used to be such close friends. seems like everyone's drifted away. everyone's got their own agenda. i barely see them. wonder how everyone is!

simply lovely

beautiful isnt it. i could stare at if for hours. just soaking all that emotions thats just bursting out of this picture. brilliant. simply lovely.

going to hell

you know when things are going to hell when your own blood betrays you. hell.

done with this exam

in kdu library right now. just finished one of my papers. :p i have another one later. :p then ill be heading to jamn with some mates. :) cant wait till im done with this blady exam. sheesh!

only god will judge me

only god will judge me.

please understand

to whom it may concern,

im the happiest when i am with you. you make me forget all my worries. you remind me to relax and have fun. i dont know how to say this but i really like you. more than you think i do. and i thank you very much. but there is just so much complications that i dont know what i should do. please understand that im in a confused state. dont get mad when i say i dont know what i want. perhaps you should ask yourself that question too. maybe that would help your confusion. but for the moment, im here for you.

yours trully,
triona.

when did it go to hell?

when did everyones judgements go to hell??? where the fuck is mine???

who said it was easy!

been so busy. i am being buried with homework and assignments. my mid term is this friday and i should be studying. but i felt obligated to go online and update myself on online ongoings. pop quizes are nasty!! but fortunately i did well. did pretty badly with my referencing assignment though. got a C+. pretty shitty. oh so much typing to do. ahhhh.....who the hell said mass comm was easy!! *mumble mumble*

in so deep, i cant get out

when did life get so complicated. i guess i put myself in these situations. no one put me there really. so there is no one else to blame but myself. i told myself last week that i would get out of the situation before i fall in too deep. and when i tried to pull myself out, i realized that i am in too deep. and that when i tried pulling out, i couldnt really so i went back in and put myself in a deeper hole. a hole so deep i dont know if i can get out, i dont know if i want to get out.

better than what we had

so what if hes got someone new. is it wrong to feel a lil bit jealous??? i mean i have dated a handfull of people since we broke up. but i get this slight twinge of jealousy when i see them together. im gald hes got someone new. i know hes very picky in the girls he dates, so im sure he chose well. and i hope they will be happy together. i hope she didnt make the same mistakes i did. and i hope he treats her better than the way he treated me.

whipped cream and tequilla

wolfs party was alright. had fun. i got bought by ian with apromise that i would take him out for dinner at fridays and that i would give him a kiss at the end of the date, with my mouth open. i managed to buy kouk, who is now my pet dog and my escort to social functions; and andy who promised to pick me up and take me to dinner and send me home and then we have desert! ;) i prefere whipped cream and strawberries, if you know what i mean! ;)

later that night we went to arjuns place to go drinking. i got so fucking sloshed. all that yummy tequilla!! i was fine until we opened the 2nd bottle. it was foul. i got so drunk after that. i pretty much threw up all over damansara and pj. apparently i threw up infront of the mosque during the morning prayers. how cool is that!!

beggers cant be choosers

goddamn! havent posted in more than a week! been so busy and all. well i just started in kdu. im doing mass comm. im only taking two subjects at the moment but its hectic as it is. its only six week long semester. so the lecturers are rushing to meet the quota. made a couple of friends here. they are pretty cool. met loads of old friends though! friends that i havent seen in years!! i guess i like it here. my classmates are fun. feel like i dont fit in sometimes but beggers cant be choosers right?