harry potter on speed

i got home about 1 last night and my sis was still awake. so i was bugging her to entertain me cos there was nothing to do. so we played speed and harry potter trivia game until 4:30. i cant believe we actually did it. but it was fun to play kiddy games. havent done it in awhile.

and yes i do own a harry potter trivia boardgame!

really wierd event

i was sitting in the bus stop waiting for the bus yesterday. and there was this guy around my age who just walked up behind me, and ruffled my hair and walked away. i thought it was someone i knew so i was trying to put his face in place than i realized i didnt know him at all. by then he was just too far away for me too pull my kung fu moves on him (yeah right). i was just sitting there with a puzzled look on my face so the two girls in the bus stop was looking at me wierdly.... i had to explain to them that i didnt even know him for them to stop staring. then they started bitching about how men from malaysia are jerks.

really wierd event....had to blog it.

i guess i really do like him

i guess i was being inconsiderate. he gave all the space that i needed, but i didnt give him enough space. well he is asking for a lot of space. and it was very different from when we first started, he wanted to be with me all the time.

its changed now.

and i guess i did blame him for someone being pissed at me, but that doesnt change what he did.

i cant just forget that he stood me up, didnt call me when he said he would, ignored my calls and avoided me all in one day.

why do i put up with him??

i guess i really do like him alot huh....

falling into a wall

i think im falling for him. the only shit thing is that he probably wants out. i guess i have to accept it. i dont really have a choice. its just that im so fond of him. we used to spend everyday together. im just so used to being with him.

i think i might be heading straight into a wall. and its my fault i didnt stop.

looks like maybe i really need to give him more sex!

speech

Just finished my speech for.......Public speaking. I talked about suicide. and I think I aced the speech! My lecturer said that she would have given me full marks.. But there is no such thing as full marks in English.....Or something like that. She commented that whoever going after me would have a problem living up to my speech!! IM sooo proud of myself!

on a darker side, my class mate that made a speech on obesity. and here is this skinny ass girl telling people about the bad side of being obese. she was pretty much mocking obese people. thats not all.... there was this big guy in the exam room....and i think he took offense towards the speech. im not obese and i was offended. way to go skinny girl!

evrything has gone wrong

i dont know why its dissapointing me so much. is it too much too ask for a little time together.

i had such a shit morning. i woke up with a msg saying maybe i should leave him. its not surprising that i cried. been so emotional for the past few days....i think im still crying a lil. everyone just thinks my eyes are watering cos im sick....great cover up. my hands are shaking uncontrollably. im trying my best to hide it.

so i pushed my emotions away for the time being and decide to go for class. well i got to college, but there was no class. i have 2 hours till class actually starts. so im waisting my time, fucking around. i need a smoke badly, but i havent eaten anything...so i know its a bad idea to smoke...since i am sick after all.

ill probably be meeting him later.... wether we talk is a different matter entirely.

why do i feel so depressed?

hate nightmares

had a nightmare yesterday. heres just some of the details.

- my boyfriend was cheating on me with a girl from the shop (sierra). i was too stupid to see it happening. when i confronted him about it he just said she gave him better sex. he didnt care at all. he was mean and cold to me.
* i have this sneaky feeling this dream is trying to tell me that he really doesnt care.
* also it could mean that i should give my boyfriend more sex.

-the lecturer that i sort of have a crush on kicked me out of class and banned me from it. he was so pissed at me, he refused to say anything to me.
* think the dream is trying to tell me to forget about flirting with the lecturer and focus on the subject.
* it could also mean that my efforts arent good enough and i need to take remedial flirting lessons.

-my friends all started to ignore me and stop hanging out with me.
*maybe i should be nicer to my friends
* or maybe i need new friends.

i woke up crying. loosing my friends and failing in college suprisingly didnt hurt as much as loosing my boyfriend. i guess he does mean a lot to me.

sick and wierd

been sick as shit. coughing up barrels full of phlegm. ewww....i know. had to skip todays lectures too.(not that im complaining really) ive got a copy cat in college. she tries to copy the things i do, tries to like the people i like....really wierd!

mega bitch

i have declared myself official mega bitch! i always was a bitch but now i am a MEGA BITCH!!

here is the story:

i was hanging out with ryan and my exes girlfriend was walking around with aluminium foil all over her hair and she saw me there. she was embarrased and she said to her friend "oh my god. oh my god its (insert name here) ex!" she turned away and didnt want me to see her. (i dont know why) i guess she was embarrased about the way she looked. so i said out "oh my god, she looks so stupid!" i couldnt help it. since she was so worried about the way she looked around me.... i just couldnt help it!

im so proud of myself!!!

goo goo dolls-iris clip

this weeks clip is goo goo dolls - iris. my fave song!!!

fairies

been in love with these fairies pics. check it out.

type like old people fuck

i finally finished my public speaking quiz. i finished it in the cafeteria in col in the morning and i was typing my usual slow ass pace when i realized i only had 15 min left to the deadline. i hadnt even finished one page out of my 3. my friend sees my sad attempt at typing and decides to type for me. the time i took to type one paragraph was the same time he took to type my whole speech. how sad is that. i just cut class to go online. class is just to boring.....i hate organizational communication.

aftermath of convention

well the convention in shah alam went pretty well. i went as a rosie cotton from lord of the rings. there was a harry potter, a sith lord and a grinch. pretty cool. i think the sith lord won the competition though. not sure. i took lots of great pics...but ill upload them as soon as i can. i was there demonstrating pirates and there were these kids there who just wanted to break all my ships. it was pretty sad...i was so fustrated. and there were these kids who kept bully harry potter... they took his wand and kept jabbing him with it. the also took the light saber and jabbed him with it....really funny. i did a talk show thing with harry potter and interviewed people there.then we all buka puasa together all 20 0f us. the restaurant who i think wasnt used to so many customers kept fucking up the orders and it took forever to get our food.

wolf con

ANOUNCEMENT
anyone interested in boardgames, miniature games, card games or role playing games or just looking for some great fun? well come over to shah alam in the shah alam mall near concorde hotel on sunday and join us for the first ever wolf convention. ill be a hostess there so you can meet up with me and just chill out and have fun. its on from 10am till 6:30 pm. cosplay fans can come over and join our cometition as well...ill be going as rosie cotton from lord of the rings. there will also be a lord of the rings booth so fans come on over. support us people!!!

peeps from the shop

some pictures from the peeps of the shop. so if you wanna meet up with them then come over.

sad sad person

im sure all friendster would have noticed that you can now check out who has viewed your profile....want to know whats really sad? there is only one!! how sad is that...and the dude looks like a total creep. im such a sad sad person!

liking you teacher

was reading this really stupid book that my sis had. its about a bunch of high school kids finally being aware of their sexuality and the people around them....but thats not the point. one of the girls had a crush on her teacher. the teacher wasnt intrested in her but its pretty hard to tell if your teacher is just being nice and helpful because its his job or that he is actually intrested. im puzzled....how would i ever know??

dont ask why im wondering!

i can play video clips now!!

check it out! i can play video clips now!!! i know it would probably end up like those annoying blogs with the song that keeps going on and on and ON!! but please press the stop button if you dont want to see or hear the song. or if you dont like the song. i will TRY to change the video every week. tried to get creep by radiohead since i posted the lyrics but couldnt find it!

The video of the week is Deftones-Minerva. great song. enjoy!

Creep - Radiohead

had to put this lyrics in. this is one of my all time favorite songs.


Creep-Radiohead
When you were here before,
couldn't look you in the eye.
You're just like an angel,
your skin makes me cry.
You float like a feather,
in a beautiful world
I wish I was special,
ou're so fucking special.

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

I don't care if it hurts,
I want to have control.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
when I'm not around.
You're so fucking special,
wish I was special.

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?.
I don't belong here

he's running out the door,
she's running,
she run, run, run, run, run.

Whatever makes you happy,
whatever you want.
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special,
but I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here,
I don't belong here.

assignment!!!

ive got 4 assignments to finish by this weekend so dont mind if you see lack of posting on my side.

assignments to finish

radio- comparison between the morning show on hitz.fm and traxx fm. this requires me to actually listen to the godamned show which is from 6 till 10. considering the fact that i actually sleep around 5 and have col at 9, thats pretty shit.

public speaking-a 10 min informative speech on the topic of my choice. sounds pretty fair actually. was thinking on writing about the reasons on why teenagers commit suicide.

organizationa communication- an essay and a presentation on conflicts in management. boring as shit but its group work so it cant be that bad.

critical thinking- im just supposed to get an article and find the main points in them and write an 800 word essay on it. not that bad

malaysian studies- i have no idea what the hell i have to do

sociology- a 2000 word essay on the westernization in malaysia. pretty intresting but im too lazy to write 2000 words.

assignments that i have completed.

sociology- my friends and i had to do a presentation on sexual harassment. so we did a skit and Meng was the victim and i was the harasser. it was basicly about this girl who keeps harassing this innocent boy and he feels ashamed and it took the girl to molest him before he finally took it to the cops. when he got to the police station the harasser turned out to be a cop. pretty funny.....definately got the crowd. heres my chance to get an A.