kittie-brackish

this is one of the other song that we would be playing. the ones in pink are the ones im singing!

Kittie-Brackish

She is not scared to die
The best things in life drive her to cry
Crucify then learn
{Take so much away from inside you
Makes no sense, you know he can't guide you
He's your fucking shoulder to lean on
Be strong}
Sit and watch me burn
{Take so much away from inside you
Makes no sense, you know he can't guide you
He's your fucking shoulder to lean on
Be strong}
She's led to believe
That it'll be OK
Look at your face
Scarred in dismay
But times have changed
And so have you
I think I'd rather
Crucify than learn
{Take so much away from inside you
Makes no sense, you know he can't guide you
He's your fucking shoulder to lean on
Be strong}
Sit and watch me burn
{Take so much away from inside you
Makes no sense, you know he can't guide you
He's your fucking shoulder to lean on
Be strong}
I'd like to take you down
And show you deep inside
My life, my inner working of smell
And lack of inner pride
To touch upon the surface
Is not for what it seems
I take away my problems
But only in my dreams
Take so much away from inside you
Makes no sense, you know he can't guide you
He's your fucking shoulder to lean on
Be strong
Take so much away from inside you
Makes no sense, you know he can't guide you
He's your fucking shoulder to lean on
Be strong

lotr parody

ahmad showed me these really good site. its all the lotr parodies! its really funny! just go to google ar yahoo and type 'tasty graphite lotr parodies'. check it out! its really funny!

changes everything

i found out that someone has met all the requirements for prince charming! a certain blonde hair and blue eyed guy. damn.....must keep my hands off him! didnt think anyone would ever meet ALL the requirements! shit!what am i gonna do? this changes everything!

la trinite

ive just started a new game! its called pirates of the spanish main. its basicly, a bunch of ships trying to sink each other. its really, really fun! im playing spanish! viva la espaniol! because of that, i have decided to call myself 'la trinite' when im playing! oy! oy!

rankings for rawdeal

i was checking the rankings for rawdeal ccg, and im estatic to find out that i am in the top 5 rankings in malaysia. the rankings are as follows...


Bryan Ong
Benjamin Lam
Andy Putra
Hafyzan bin Md Yusuf
Triona Lydia Leo
Shazli Abdul Aziz
Neo Wykeith
Ahmad Farith
John Ryan
Johan Jamal

the one in pink is obviously me! the one in blue are the shop boys! congratulation guys for occupying most of the top 10 slots! lets kick bryan 'boring' ong out of the top and eliminate that neo 'i think im keanu' guy! we can do it!

kittie-what i always wanted

this is the first song we will be playing. the blue text is the ones ill be singing.

Kittie-What I Always Wanted

Opened up it's revealed!
Savour this
Dont get lost in a lie!
Hit or miss
Beside, myself, push on
What's to come must be proved
Focus bliss
Charcoal stares
One foot at a time
Smear those lines
I thought I found
What I always wanted
Bear with me
I thought I found
What I always wanted
Bear with me
Certainty
Is not at hand
I can't keep my eyes shut
Chose not to listen
I thought I found
What I always wanted
Bear with me
I thought I found
What I always wanted
I got what I wanted
I got just what I always wanted
I got what I wanted
I got just what I always wanted

pacifism

well the band is up again, there are new additions, its basicly a merging of two bands. theres me on vocals, blur on base, michelle on guitar and vocals, nick on guitar and some dude on drums. (please dont ask why i dont know him!) we have already picked a song to start with. its kittie again. we will be starting to jam early febuary. andy will be a guest singer in the band. he wants to do a duet with me. and im to fucking honoured to do it! i think hes a great singer, and it makes me nervous thinking that ill be having a duet with Y2J himself. i think we all finally serious about it! lets hope it works. pacifism will reign!

insane posts

hi im triona. for those who dont know me, i would like to introduce you to myself. im bubbly and im dramatic! trust me, i am! azmin. loco. ahmad. dawn. andy. fiezan. shazz. wolf.



for those of you who are puzzled by my posting, ill explain. azmin and i were fooling around online. we were searching for our names online. my most recent post with my name in it is the lost hobbit one. so when you search for it you would see. "triona. if you know this hobbit, please visit www.kissmyass.com" and when we searched for azmins name. the posting on my blog was bukit jahanam. so i decided to write this post. hoping that it would show this instead! so dont worry, i havent gone insane on my posts!

blinded by love!

its funny how stupid you get when your dumbfounded by love. it makes you do dumb things and you dont realize important things. especially, your first love. you would think that the guy is the one and your perfect together, even if he treats you like shit and beats you up. i guess for girls, when you lose your virginity to someone, hey feel bonded, and they cant let go. even if it gets violent. i think thats the case with someone i know. we all know hes been treating you badly, but i understand what its like being in love in a bad relationship, you keep holding on, hoping that he would change, that things would get better. but you must always know when enough is enough! were here for you girl! always been. ill welcome you any day, just come to us if you need a shoulder to cry on ok. the past is the past. dont worry about it. we miss you!

make me special

speaking of prince charming and such, theres quite a few thing i wished i have experianced. example:

i always wanted someone to sing me to sleep. i think its blady romantic. well i always wanted someone to sing to me, full stop. i love it when people touch my face gently. bryan barely ever did it. i like it when a special someone tells me what a horrible day he has and complains about it. i want him to tell me his feelings. i want people to really look into my eyes. bryan used to do that alot, then he stopped looking at me. i want to feel loved. i want to feel missed. i want to feel special....

boardolympics update #2

we played two games yesterday. puerto rico and scrabble. for both the games ahmad snagged gold. he deserved it for puerto rico. scrabble... we werent even in contention for the gold medal. he just zoomed up to the top, so we just contended for silver and bronze. i managed to snag the bronze in scrabble, and andy took the silver. in puerto rico, i took silver and loco for the bronze.

other events that day came from group D. they played scrabble. it was a very close match between dawn and azmin, (unlike my group). but dawn managed to pull a gold medal out of the bag, azmin with the silver and swedish with the bronze. (swedish has been renamed swiss, by andy) they had also played uno stacko and dawn managed to get a gold as well, ian the kai master with silver and swedish with bronze. this game was rather memorable for me cos swedish kept bending over to take the tiles. ( thanks for the view mat!) well in total, the malaysian national anthem was played four times that day. kita boleh!!!

brace yourself!

do you ever get the feeling that something bad is going to happen? you just feel like your dreading something. its like 5 mins before your going to be executed. you cant do anything about it, all you can do is wait! cos you dont really know whats wrong or what your dreading. all you know is, that its coming and you have to brace yourself for it! thats what im feeling right now.... not sure what to do, if i could do anything!

prince charming wanted

WANTED: PRINCE CHARMING; TO SAVE A DAMSEL IN DISTRESS
REQUIREMENTS:

1) tall (at least taller than me!)
2) good looking
3) nice
4) caring
5) funny
6) charming
7) not emotionally dead
8) good kisser
9) smart
10) able to speak english
11) nice eyes
12) not a self centered bastard
13) not a sexist
14) is not cruel to animals
15) have sex appeal (at least to me)
16) imaginitive/creative
17) will be there for me
18) good voice
19) patient
20) understanding


if you have met at least 15 of the requirements, the ones in red is compulsary! call me! if you have met all the requirements, come here baby!

psychotic weird triona

i think ive been acting really psychotic lately! im surprised at the things i have done this past month or so! im so upfront even i dont believe. im so much bolder than before. i used to be shy...!

so a lil note to everyone. if you have noticed the change in me, dont get scared, i spect its just a phase! to a certain someone.... im not weird all the time. we met each other at a weird time!

not so funny anymore

found this in my old blog that me and my friends made up. just thought i would post it. i just thought it was funny. esp. now that we have broken up! well i guess its not so funny huh?

FOUND: LOST HOBBIT
ANSWERS TO THE NAME TRIONA.
IF YOU KNOW THIS HOBBIT PLEASE CONTACT WWW.KISSMYASS.COM
hey people! yep ive been found, unfortunately im still lost! what the fuck am i doing here. ive been in this mood for two days. im kinda bored, i think im sexually deprived! its been a while since i had some passion. (damn you bryan) i keep thinking i have to darg him to a toilet and jump him. hes been so busy....ill try to jump him on wednesday. i hope it works! i think ive finally gotten bored of doing nuthing. i mean i love doing nuthing, just feel like doing something other than thinking of ways to jump bryan. oh gawd im so depressing!!! sob sob bawllll!!! sniff sniff! i think im just cranky! havent slept much in 3 days. and i think i drink and smoke too much! oh by the way, my band has a gig coming up and im on lead vocals. i would like for you guys to come, ill give the details when it is finalized! cheers.

didnt mean for it to turn up like this....

i kinda have a problem. lets just say, you were just having fun with someone and maybe you flirted here and there, and he flirted back, and you thought the person would know that you were just having fun. but lets just say you found out that he really was serious, and he was really falling for you. and your not sure you wanted it to go that way. well technicly, your not supposed to know that hes intrested. but you dont want to stop flirting either, what do you do??? hehe.... help....

to the person whom this concerns, well im not sure if i like you in that way or not. im not sure what im feeling.

medal tally after 8 games

well im having loads of fun for the boardolympics! we have played 8 games so far.

1) paper, rock, scissors-it was the most intense game i have ever seen in my life. well the luck god andy took gold,loco silver, ahmad bronze. no medals for me
2)battleship-ahmad took the gold. loco silver. bronze for me
3)bohnanza-this was a very close match. andy had 19 points. i had 18. loco had 17 and ahmad 16.
4)boggle-no surprise here. ahmad took gold. andy silver. loco bronze. no medals for me.
5)unostacko-this was so farqing intense. you could feel it in the air. loco took gold. andy silver and ahmad bronze.
6)monopoly-well, well. no surprises here....andy took gold. only because ahmad made a huge mistake in trading mayfair to him. after the trade, we all knew it was the end. silver for me and bronze for loco.
7)settlers-this is my game....i took the gold with 11 points, when everyone was at 4 points. loco got silver. and andy with bronze.
8) munchkin-this was really close too. everyone had 9 points. but the cards in my hand was just too good and i didnt let anyone win. gold for me. silver for andy and bronze for ahmad.

medal tally

andy 3g 3s 1b
triona 2g 2s 1b
ahmad 2g 0s 3b
loco 1g 3s 3b

boardolympics

aaaand the boardolympics is off!!!!! twenty people will compete for the next two months in 15 different events to find the ultimate boardgeek! there are 4 different groups of 4. my group consist of andy, ahmad, loco and myself. throughout the whole draw i was chanting 'please, not andy! please, not andy!' and look who i get... andy! he has the luck of gods! he is after all the malaysian monopoly champ! im at least fortunate enough to not get chen, i can imagine the games. we would be strangeling each other! then i got ahmad as well, ahmad is blady competitive. especially with me. andy is good in monopoly and scrabble; ahmad in; scrabble and puerto rico; loco in settlers of catan and scrabble; so where the hell is my strong point? its going to be a tough fight in our group. and all i can say is may the best person win! the other pods consist of chen, the shop representitive, is and dennis; robb, shazz, jonathan and norman; dawn, azmin, ian and swedish.

i would also like to put in a special thanks to Andy coming out with the idea on the boardolympics!

i wanna say thanks in a cheasy way!

i want to thank everyone for being there for me when i was down in the dumps. thanks everyone for getting me out of depression. i want to take this opportunity to thank these following people ahmad, arjun, azmin, dawn, deb, govind, hafyzan, jeffrey, kuok, loco, michelle, rudy, ryan, shaz, wolf and zach. you guys really helped me alot! im so thankful. you guys helped me out of a slump that i thought i could never get out of! thank you!

a special thanks to a certain blonde hair and blue eyed guy who let me flirt with him, it helped me take my mind off bryan; and to the hot bosnian guy. you have made me lose alot of saliva but it helped me in getting off depresion.

bold...

maybe, my friends were right! maybe i do write things that are too personal. i mean bryan reads my blog, i think he would be really upset. but thats me, i like to express myself. ive realized that i can find any blog thats similiar to mine. no one expresses themselves like me. in a way i think thats cool, but ,maybe im too bold for comfort. do people enjoy reading my blog? do you think i should carry on writing like i do? tell me people.... post on my tagboard.

i know my limits?

so what would you do to get the person you want? how far would you go? i think i know how far i could go; and the best way to tell you is through this song....(btw, this post could not have been possible without mathias 'swedish' rapp. im really thankful. thanks so much! sob... sob..)

garbage-i will die for you

I would die for you,
I would die for you,
I've been dying just to feel you by my side,
To know that you're mine.
I will cry for you,
I will cry for you,
I will wash away your pain with all my tears,
And drown your fear.
ah ah ah ah ah
ah ah ah ah ah
ah ah ah ah
ah ah ah ah ah
I will pray for you,
I will pray for you,
I will sell my soul for something pure and true,
Someone like you.
See your face every place that I'm walking,
Hear your voice everytime I’m talking,
You will believe in me,
And I will never be ignored.
I will burn for you,
Feel a pain for you,
I will twist a knife and bleed my aching heart,
And tear it apart.
I will lie for you,
Beg and steal for you,
I will crawl on hands and knees until you see,
You're just like me.
Violate all the love that I’m missing,
Throw away all the pain that I’m living,
You will believe in me,
And I can never be ignored.
I would die for you,
(ah ah ah ah ah)
I would kill for you,
(ah ah ah ah ah)
I will steal for you,
(ah ah ah ah ah)
I’d do time for you,
(ah ah ah ah ah)
I will wait for you,
(ah ah ah ah)
I’d make room for you,
(ah ah ah ah ah)
I’d sail ships for you,
(ah ah ah ah)
To be close to you,
(ah ah ah ah ah)
To be part of you,
(ah ah ah ah)
Cos’ I believe in you,
(ah ah ah ah ah)
I believe in you,
I would die for you.

give up?

if you found yourseld in a situation where you were the minority, and it seems so much easier to just give up, would you give up? would you give up everything you believe in just because its easier? even if the goal seems so far away and its pointless to just continue! when all odds seem to be against you, when no one is on your side, would you give it all up.
just wanted to quote a lil of my fave movie lotr: 'theres some good in the world mr.frodo, and its worth fighting for!' these words were said my samwise in the movie. and the speach he made was such an inspiration to me, that i dont think ill ever forget those words.

mortality

i was watching a bunch of vampire shows and this brought up a bunch of questions that made me think alot. 'how important is mortality to you?' 'would you give up mortality to be with someone?' its so easy to say i would sell my soul to the devil to get him/her back, but would you give up mortality? would you exchange it for eternal life for someone you love? would you let him/her age and die and you live forever. just so you can have him/her back?

random people

ive been confronted alot lately by random people who read me blog. a lil taste. "oh, so ure triona! ive been reading your blog. are you ok? i mean with the whole bryan thing?" yep, i get that often. i kinda knew that would happen when i decided i wanted to display my public life online. its just that i didnt think anyone would actually read it. aside from my closest friends ofcourse. im surprised. well when i started this blog i really wanted it to be an actual diary. but honestly didnt think i would have written half the things i did. i just got bolder and bolder as i wrote. well i didnt think i would have been going through half the emotional trauma that i am going through now. just a lil note for people i dont know that read my blog, leave a msg on my tagboard, u already know me too well, now let me get to know you. and im much better. ive been surviving on hot bosnians and meatballs! ehem! and from the naggings of rudy himself, i have decided to try my very best to blog as much as possible, hopefully i have something to say everyday.

shields and pacts

its funny how everything looks when you think back on it. i realized im really funny in a sordid way. my greatest fear is being alone. but i seem to drive people away from me. when someone gets to close i just panic and start doing things that might make them hate me. ive done it so many times. yet i havent learned from it. recently i drove someone who meant the world to me, away. he was the only person i loved. the only person ive let myself love. yet still i drove him away. i made him hate me. maybe im afraid of commitment. maybe im scared. i recall occations where people who were close to me went away, they went overseas, and such. maybe i dont want that to happen to me again. but whats the difference between me driving them away and them leaving? ive lost him now. and i cant get him back. i would do anyhing to get him back. and im close to making a pact with the devil to get him.