The Diary of a Hopeless Romantic: 2007

Friday, November 16, 2007

Customs Killed my Christmas

I got my package from Germany, my prize for 4th place. My sis woke me up and told me and i was so happie... jumping out of bed to go open it. It was like christmas! i felt like a kid happie to open presents! But when i opened the biggest prize (the wooden settlers of catan set), it was empty. The bags and casing were there, but absolutely nothing in it. Empty. Zip. Nada. Zero. And the latch was broken.

It felt like Christmas was ruined. I was waiting so long to get it, just that damn box. We suspect that it might have been customs or the baggage handlers. But theres no way to prove it. So Edwin said he will email them and try and get a replacement. I really hope so, cos i love that set sooo much.

But if anyone knows how to find out what happened or who i can sue for taking my prize, please tell me.

Stop Haunting Me

I'm trying to do different things to distract myself. I want to forget him and things that remind me of him. Cos i know this is getting unhealthy. If he has no concern for me why should i care about him. So im doing different stuff, just trying to keep myself busy.

I was checking an old chat (imvu) and then i see that hes on my friends list. I didnt even know he was on imvu! Where can i go where he doesnt haunt me.

So im getting involved with an old fling again. Hes always been nice to me and hes a good guy. But with him i see so much of him that i wish was different. That i wish was more like the person im trying to forget. I wish we had the same passion, i wish he was just as crazy and fun.

The thing about him (the person i want to forget) is that hes my total equal, and i love that in a partner. We can do the same crazy things and have arguments over religion for hours. I love that he mentally stimulates me. I love the fact that hes practically my twin cos we are so alike in so many ways. And i miss that. And every guy that has come by for a year+ has been compared to him. I know it, i just didnt want to admit him. I wouldnt say i love him, cos i dont think i do. Its just that ive put him on a pedestal, a benchmark. He is my ideal man. I just need to forget that he is, and move on to next best or better.

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Facebook Whore

Ok so ive been neglecting my blog. So what have ive been up to? Honestly... facebook. Its sad but its true. Everytime im online its what ive been doing, facebook.

I joined this really cute program there called Human Pets. Its so much fun. You get to buy people, including your friends and you get to name them whatever nickname u want. And people get to buy you too, so theres alot of nice clean fun. I'm hooked. I got an awesome owner and i love buying cute men with long hair.. Hehehe...

I'm such a facebook whore.

PS: Run just reminded me that my birthday is in a few weeks, and i havent planned anything yet. argh! i have to wait for my elder sis to get back from china before i plan anything and my younger sis wont be able to make it cos shes join to Langkawi.. sucks.

Wrong Dog

im emo~

My friend from US and i were talking about going to visit him when i go to US next year. He was talking about the stuff we can do and how i would love to meet his dog. And the first thing i thought was 'yea i always wanted to meet Tobey (Wojtek's dog)'. I dont know how it popped in my head but it just did.

And just as i thought about it, my music player plays G&R- Don't Cry. Which happens to be my Wojtek emo theme song. Argh... I swear my computer is trying to make me depressed.

I always wanted to meet Tobey, i heard so much about him from Wojtek, and how hes so cute and silly and smart. Argghhh... wrong dog Triona, wrong dog!

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Blondes Have More Fun

I woke up 3 days ago and decided, I WANNA BE BLONDE! It just hit me like that, i open my eyes and figured i needed an excuse to be bimbo. So i did it! I was abit reluctant, i was afraid i might look abit ah lian. But i think it suits me, sad to say.

Still slightly copper

My roots are super blond while the rest of my hair is dark blonde

Im Blonde Baby!

With flash it looks red :/

Monday, October 29, 2007

Mini Gathering

Edwin making a speech

Ryan handing me my trophy. Check out the camera flashes :D

Edwin is a doll.. he organized a gathering with some of the guys because of my good performance in Essen. And there was a mini prize giving and food :D

Theresa is a doll too... gave me free food... yummy spagetti.

Edwin made me make a speech >.< i didn't know what to say lol. He made a suprise announcement that i will be automatically qualified to go USA for GenCon next year! woohooo! how cool is that.

Travel log- Mulheim, Dussledorf Day 6

My room in Mulheim

9.45am Mulheim- Day 6

‘All my bags are packed and I’m ready to go’

But my damn flight is only at 9pm! That’s 11 hours with nothing to do. I got to check out in a few minutes. I’m sitting on the windowsill, which has been my ‘spot’ for the last week. I’m breathing in the place I’ve called home. I was getting really used to it. But I’m excited to go home. Where its warm and cozy.

‘’im going home, to the place where I belong’

Ah well, got to check out now, then wander the streets looking for sausages.

3pm Dussledorf- Day 6

As for Wojtek, he was a no show. He told me he tried but couldn’t get enough money. I don’t blame him, 5 days notice isn’t much. But I was dying to meet him. I’m surprised I let him so easily in my heart after a year of no contact and after what he did to me. I’m pretty sure he doesn’t have the enthusiasm I have in err…. Rekindling what we had. So now I got to get him out of my heart. But it isn’t as easy as letting him in. Fuck-

The tournament next year will be in USA and all my favorite contestants wasn’t so sure if they could make it (Too far, visa problem). So ill have to wait again in 4 years to go back to Germany. The same people might be there and too many years will definitely change what Wojtek and I have. But if he is willing to try, ill be saving to go to Poland.

Till then muirn beatha dan. Till then.

Travel log- Essen Day 4 and 5

9am Mulheim- Day 4

OMFG. The tournament is today. Wtf, I’m not ready! All they want me to do is get ranking 33 and higher. If Ryan and KK couldn’t do it, what makes you think I can? I’m so damn nervous. What if I get last place?

9am Mulheim- Day 5

Yesterday was amazing. I never thought I would do so well, or make that many friends, but I did! I made 6th place after the first day, and I was practically a social butterfly. I had laughs with the Brits, American and Canadian. I was the closest with the Romanians, very funny guys (who btw, flirts and plays footsie to win, not that I’m complaining). I witness the Swiss snort tobacco, or that’s what they say it is. The Polish were pretty cute, I hated the Finish guy, last years champion, but in the end were cool. The Slovenian I swear was being controlled by Cthulu.
In the end of the day, I had 2 wins (10+10pts), 1x 2nd place (9pts) and 1x 3rd place (7pts). Not bad actually.

The organizer is a freak! And I want to get freaky with him…. Rowr…

Sorry back to topic, well I qualified for Day 2. So we will see how I do today. I recon I’ll loose to the damn German in the first round and spend the rest of the day taking pictures.

8pm Mulheim- Day 5

The tournament was surreal. I did waaay better that I ever thought I would do. I actually made it to the finals! But I had 8pts, which was good enough only for 4th place. I know I could have done better, but I’m soo happy nonetheless. I’m the first female to have ever qualified to the finals! Girl Power!

There was soo many people watching and cheering for their fellow countrymen. I felt pretty upset at that time. Where was my country? I’m the first Malaysian at this finals and I had no one to celebrate with (except Edwin, his wife Janice and son Shaun, god bless u guys).

But I made trillions of friends, and in the end they were the ones edging me on, to carry one, giving me that confidence even though I screwed up so badly. The Japanese, Romanian, Polish were behind me, watching. I was glad for all the support I could get. (Love u guys)

In the finals with me was last years champion (Finland), a Latvian and a Brit.
It was a hard fought game for me. I constantly had to struggle out of a mistake in my starting position. But I managed to scrape through with 8pts! Which is miraculous considering the shit I was in.

I think I made a good impression there. I was well liked, and was rooted by a lot of people I just met there. In the end the Latvian won, and I think he deserved it. He fought a difficult battle.
The Japanese are really nice guys. They gave me biscuits ^ ^. And a puzzle! They were always rooting for me, for Asia! They were also trying to pimp their contestant off to ally with me. I guess that’s why they were giving me stuff. Bribe! Ahahaha! But I like them, total fun!

Its such a change from my first few days here. I was so lonely when I got here and I wanted to go home. Now that I’ve made so many friends, and have so much fun, I’m missing the place already. I’m missing everyone I met, I miss drinking, smoking (snorting), laughing, gaming, bitching, having dinner with these guys. I miss getting free beer and cookies from them! And I might never see them again. Maybe some I will see in Speil 2010.

The sponsors I think took a liking to me and perhaps because I was the first female. They gave me a wooden casing settlers of catan worth 250 euros! Which is awarded to the first and second placing only! Aha! Freebie! I’m excited to go home, yet I don’t want to leave, but I wouldn’t stay if they people I’ve made friends with weren’t here.

Final Standings

Winner- Arnis Buka (Latvia)
1st Runner up- Alan Farrell (Britain)
2nd Runner up- Markus Nuopponen (Finlad)
3rd Runner up- Triona Leo (Malaysia)

4-56place- Some of the coolest and friendliest people I’ve met in a long time. I had a blast with them. It has been truly a great experience, I doubt I’ll forget.