Love Lost and Forlorn

Everywhere I go
He's there, staring back at me
Like a ghost of my memories
A reflection of my mind

There are no words of comfort
There is no peace in my head
Only the sorrow that consumes me
The pain i feel inside

heart vs head

im done.
i dont want to call you.
i dont want to be checking up on you so you would talk to me.
i want to stop fooling myself.

but if i leave, you wont come find me.
you wont come after me.
you wont ask me to stay.

but i want you to.
i want you to say you miss me.
i want you to come running after me.
i want you to look for me when i dont show up.
i want you to say you care.
i want you to tell me i mean something to you.

but i dont.
so if i leave, i will lose you.
and thats the last thing i want.
but its the right thing to do.

Wheres My Sense and Sensibility

EMO ALERT!

Ive been reading Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen and one of the main chars Marianne falls in love with young and dashing Willoughby who both have a total attraction to each other and enjoy each others company completely. But then he tells her he has to go away and wont be back for a long time.

Some of u might see how the nostalgia has hit me. Longing for my summer romance in which i met and fell in love with my prince charming. Only for him to disappear and not tell me. (you know its you if your reading this).

I was so frustrated when i read that Willoughby left. In my head i was screaming, "Why did you leave her, if you loved her so!" So there were strings attached and the path ahead was difficult, but with time and patience, it might have worked out.

I was beyond frustrated now, flipping through the end of the book frantically, wanting and needing to find out if Willoughby came back to Marianne with a million apologies and a hoping heart. Wanting and needing to know my own destiny, if he would run back to me and tell me he was an idiot and that he was sorry.

Willoughby and Marianne did not end up together. Annoyed of being a hopeless romantic, i threw the book on the floor and ran for my only source of comfort.

The magic 8 ball. I knew that he would tell me straight forward without fluff or sugar coatings. I asked if i would ever see him. The answer was as plain as "No".

I've done my part i know, and i know somewhere in the future, he will look back and regret. For i do not see how he can lie to himself that we were anything less then perfect.

SPIW

Ive been an intern for 2 mths now and i think ive been treated well and am pretty lucky to work in a very relaxed enviroment. I get decent work and i dont get bullied. But there are other people i know (and i have experienced a little) that have to do this ridiculous work. You know, making coffee, photocopying, stamp licker, etc.

I have to pay 1k+ rm to do my internship, i dont see why i need to pay to do something like that. Not many interns get thier money's worth and many do not get paid. Many do not even learn anything about thier field of work.

So ive started the Society for the Protection of Intern Welfare (SPIW). Help me help other interns who have been mistreated and misguided by thier institution. Together we can make this world a better place for interns.

:)

attention whore

Its funny how someone likes u for some time and u have no intentions of having anything with that person and actually avoid that person. Then u find out he likes another and you get jealous.

Am i just missing the attention or what?