naive

i feel so stupid. like i was thinking to far ahead. i wonder if he knows how much i love him, how much i want to be with him. maybe thats why were not together anymore. i feel like i wanted to much and expected to much i feel foolish. i feel so young and vulnerable. naive. i thought that he was my muirn beatha dan. how naive was i? to think that far ahead. he asured me when i wasnt. he made me feel like i was the most special, most beautiful, most loved person in the world. ive realised the magick of love. its no illusion, its magick......its real. so real that if u lose it, u lose something big!