hate nightmares

had a nightmare yesterday. heres just some of the details.

- my boyfriend was cheating on me with a girl from the shop (sierra). i was too stupid to see it happening. when i confronted him about it he just said she gave him better sex. he didnt care at all. he was mean and cold to me.
* i have this sneaky feeling this dream is trying to tell me that he really doesnt care.
* also it could mean that i should give my boyfriend more sex.

-the lecturer that i sort of have a crush on kicked me out of class and banned me from it. he was so pissed at me, he refused to say anything to me.
* think the dream is trying to tell me to forget about flirting with the lecturer and focus on the subject.
* it could also mean that my efforts arent good enough and i need to take remedial flirting lessons.

-my friends all started to ignore me and stop hanging out with me.
*maybe i should be nicer to my friends
* or maybe i need new friends.

i woke up crying. loosing my friends and failing in college suprisingly didnt hurt as much as loosing my boyfriend. i guess he does mean a lot to me.