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I don't get it. So we meet (finally), and it was great. Then 2 days later, he stops picking up my calls and doesnt reply my million smses. I was there. I was right there. Why did he do this? He is completely ignoring me so I have no idea. I guess it is obvious that he just didnt care enough. But dont I at least deserve an explanation.

He must know how much this is hurting me. But still nothing. I was right there. During our drunken conversation, he said he didnt deserve me. But why does he make me feel like I dont deserve him?

Words cannot express how upset I feel. And I cant really tell anyone just how broken he has made me.

I am glad i got to see him, even though it was for a short while. I am glad i get to touch and smell him. Hold his hand and kiss him. But it feels more painful now that I have done all that. I think about him all the time, and it hurts that he probably doesnt think about me at all. It hurts that I cry alot about it, and he is probably smiling and having fun without any thought of me.

This really hurts.